INSOMNIA

Hey blog, it's MAY2013 now.
Suddenly, i felt like blogging again. Nobody will read it but i do. Okay, so.. these days, things are not going too well. Be it school, family, relationship or myself. It just doesn't seemed to be in place. I kept my cool when I'm with anyone and was being my bubbly self. Little do they know that i wasn't really happy.

I tend to neglect people as i was too self-centered that i only cared for myself. Yes, I'm selfish. I don't want to be, at all. I just felt sorry for everything and to everyone or anyone. My selfishness dragged me into being a dick to people. I felt guilty and i tend to think too much that I've got insomnia. How i wish i could sleep right now, but i can't.

Too many things are going through my brain. "Am i doing this right? Am i wrong? Why did i do that? How could i so that? Was it my fault? Was it their fault? What if i lose everything? What if i turned mad?" Yes, just too many things.

My eyes are tired, my whole body is tired, i just want to sleep but i can't. Do i even deserve to sleep? Am i having pms now? Oh gosh, i think I'm really insane now...

Okay, actually I'm just afraid. I'm afraid of everything. I'm not that brave, I'm not strong, I'm not a superwoman. I'm just a girl that's afraid..

I don't think i even know what I'm trying to say. Maybe, I'll blog daily about my thoughts. Just to make me feel a little less burden.

♡
LEVINA